TEAM DOMINOS!
UGH
I am so tired of everything. Work, Life, it’s like a constant struggle for me to just be happy with how things are turning out and how things are going. I don’t understand the need for people to just make me feel like a worthless piece of shit because I’m not. I hate how the only thing I hear about now is how awful I’m doing at the shit that I know that I’m good at. It makes me feel like I’m just holding myself higher than I should and makes me feel 2 feet tall. I don’t know… you would think that people that “love” you and “care” about you would only try to build you up instead of tearing you down everyday about everything you do. I guess maybe it’s just me but I feel like there’s something wrong with that picture. Oh well life goes on. I hope it gets better…
How hard is it to do something nice for me? You always expect shit in return ten fold you can’t just be nice. Also, in what world is it okay to hurt your girlfriend’s feelings then CONTINUE to be a dick when you can obviously see she’s mad? Well whatever. DONE
just venting.
After a long awaited talk… things are finally turning for the better. I hope they continue on this way. I really really do. He doesn’t realize how much he means to me quite yet but after the talk we had about “us.” He’s getting there. He’s figuring it out. which is wonderful. I love him. I don’t see myself with anyone but him right now and I hope it can stay that way. I mean how special and rare is it to find a couple that plays World of Warcraft together or even Yahtzee at 3 A.M? you know? I feel like things are finally falling into place the way they should. (: Let’s HOPE that I get what I so desperately wish to have.
Hmm…
Staying the night with a friend tonight… Been the chillers night I have had in a long ass time. Thank you
Reality
So much shit seems to keep happening in my life. I graduate soooo soon. Like next month soon, I just turned 18, College is coming up.. It’s all hitting so fast. PLUS on top of that I have all of this stuff not even related to me forced on me because people don’t get that I’m not as strong as I seem to be. I’m not super human. I’m too nice. I let people take advantage of me sometimes and I can’t explain why I do it or what the purpose is. I don’t get it. I feel like I’m slowly losing the strong will that I need to have to be successful in this world. It’s time I get back to who I am. I just haven’t been myself lately. I’ve been super tired, stressed, sick, etc… I’m ready for a change. I really hope graduating can bring that to me because I need it. I really do…
